Beautiful Blue Eyes

It has been 10 days today since Lilly went to be with our Lord up in Heaven, and it has taken me this long to really put my thoughts together and write something. I still have so many thoughts to piece together, so many questions, so many happy memories that I just can't express, but I try to allow the Lord to guide me and comfort me. At first I was so angry with him; I just couldn't understand how this could happen to his faithful followers; I couldn't understand why this would happen to parents that loved their little girl more than words; I couldn't understand how such a precious, happy, healthy baby girl could just be taken away in seconds. But in all that the Lord understood, He cried (and still cries) with us, He mourns for this broken world and longs to save us from it, He gives us peace and comfort that only He can give, and He brings His people to us to show His love in the smallest ways. HE IS FAITHFUL, HE DID NOT DO THIS TO US, HE DID NOT TAKE LILLY AWAY FROM HER PARENTS, but HE WILL GET US THROUGH THIS.

Lilly was a precious daughter, granddaughter, niece, cousin and friend to us all. She was always so full of life. Sam and I loved her more than we ever thought was possible. Without having known the love of having our own children, she was the closest thing we knew to that deep love. She overtook me in away that I had never felt before. From the first time I saw her, I loved her and would have done anything for her. I longed to see her all the time and cherished each moment that I got to spend with her - holding her, watching her, loving her. And although we are sad and morn her loss , we know that she is being taken care of by our Heavenly Father. I can now look back and remember those happy times with her and be comforted.

We will cherish each memory we have of our precious Lilly with us every day. Right now I still feel so sadden in my thoughts of her, but just thinking of the way she would smile at me brings such Joy. The Lord's hands are in this and with us all and it is so evident, but I ask that you would each continue to fervently pray for Lilly's parents, Richard and Jennifer, whom we love so much; Lilly's loving grandparents, Mike and Carol & Alan and Kathy; and for all the rest of the family as we go about each day. Pray for healing of our hearts, pray for peace, pray for joy, pray for understanding that only the Lord can give.

I also want to thank each person that has reached out to Richard and Jennifer and the rest of the family. The Lord has truly used you to bring comfort to us all. Whether it was through food, cards, text messages, blog messages, phone calls, emails, flowers, or just a tender hug your love for us was felt. It brings me to tears to see how much love is out there. We live in an evil and fallen world, but the Lord has shown us through each of you that there is still love and hope.

I feel my words are still so jumbled and that I haven't said half of what I wanted to say or in the way that I hoped it would come out, I hope you can feel and know my heart. The Lord is teaching me things through all of this each day, and I am just trying to be a faithful follower and lean on Him. If you get nothing else out of this, I ask that you would concentrate on the paragraph of praying b/c we need others to intercede for us in prayer to the Lord at this time.

"The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the borkenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delievers him from them all." Psalm 34:17-19

Last I am happy to say that today is also a very special day - Sam's birthday! Although it is kinda hard and bitter sweet to celebrate in the season that we are going through, this is still such a special day! I love you so very much and I pray that the Lord bless you today on your Birthday!